Saturday, March 07, 2009
reflection.
realised the way i am getting pass life this year is worse than before.
studies - cant cope.
cant uds nor am able to catch up.
my sleeping and tv problem;
what can i say. have been sleeping alot& almost always cant focus in lectures & tutorials.
the release of alevel results,
yeah, it did made me feel motivated.
but the motivation just dint last.
once i am home, just slept all the way.
i am feeling drained.
with the pile of overdue work undone,
with myself not understanding,
with myself not studyin hard nor doing work.
yes, i guess i am panicking since MBT is nearing & i am not at all prepared.
but i just dontreally know where to start nor what to do w. myself.
deep down, i realise. i still dislike studying.
i still yearn for the freedom from exams, tests, stress just like before.
reaching 18 alr.
but no, i am still not sensible nor am able to spare a thought for my family
i still ponder alot on the past.
whatever friendship we shared & whatever that took place.
how everything had changed so quickly.
thinking abt nonsensical stuff i have no control over.
please, jsut let me start studyin real hard soon & have a better understanding of everything.
i just want to get through school life.
&yeah, i am really okay.
just pen-ing down my thoughts (;
realised the way i am getting pass life this year is worse than before.
studies - cant cope.
cant uds nor am able to catch up.
my sleeping and tv problem;
what can i say. have been sleeping alot& almost always cant focus in lectures & tutorials.
the release of alevel results,
yeah, it did made me feel motivated.
but the motivation just dint last.
once i am home, just slept all the way.
i am feeling drained.
with the pile of overdue work undone,
with myself not understanding,
with myself not studyin hard nor doing work.
yes, i guess i am panicking since MBT is nearing & i am not at all prepared.
but i just dontreally know where to start nor what to do w. myself.
deep down, i realise. i still dislike studying.
i still yearn for the freedom from exams, tests, stress just like before.
reaching 18 alr.
but no, i am still not sensible nor am able to spare a thought for my family
i still ponder alot on the past.
whatever friendship we shared & whatever that took place.
how everything had changed so quickly.
thinking abt nonsensical stuff i have no control over.
please, jsut let me start studyin real hard soon & have a better understanding of everything.
i just want to get through school life.
&yeah, i am really okay.
just pen-ing down my thoughts (;
what we could have been, 8:53 PM.
