Thursday, July 27, 2006
- I Still..." -
Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you?
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?
Baby
No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go
I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Now look at me
Instead of moving on, I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last (to last)
I've tried to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know
That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Ohhhh
Wish I could find you
Just like you found me
Then I would never let you go (without you)
Though everything's been said and done (yeah)
I still feel you (I still feel you)
Like I'm right beside you (like I'm right beside you)
But still no (still no word) word from you
`` // im always a turn aways from u so that u can see miie easily .
Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you?
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?
Baby
No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go
I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Now look at me
Instead of moving on, I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last (to last)
I've tried to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know
That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you
Ohhhh
Wish I could find you
Just like you found me
Then I would never let you go (without you)
Though everything's been said and done (yeah)
I still feel you (I still feel you)
Like I'm right beside you (like I'm right beside you)
But still no (still no word) word from you
`` // im always a turn aways from u so that u can see miie easily .
what we could have been, 11:19 PM.
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
forgot what exactly happened .
but went to take oral today .
holding area had ' leg fight ' wid jiayi , linda and alina .
the classroom was totally noisy cause of us even thou we ' shh ! ' de others previously .
english oral ..
definitely flunked .
and fail dao hen can .
haiis . reali nothing to say ..
think these were my worse orals bahs .
duno where have my speeches went to .
something is just missing from my life .
after leaving school had another ' fight ' wid jamiie .
2 vs. 1 ..
however .. jamiie is reali kickk derhs .
then miie andd alina is those jkjk derhs .
den alina's leg got one part po pi ..
mine only bruises .
she still owe miie a kickk andd a slap .
- yi ge ji mo de ren -
wat can ii do about my orals now ? nothing .
``// im always only a turn away from u so that u can see miie easily .
but went to take oral today .
holding area had ' leg fight ' wid jiayi , linda and alina .
the classroom was totally noisy cause of us even thou we ' shh ! ' de others previously .
english oral ..
definitely flunked .
and fail dao hen can .
haiis . reali nothing to say ..
think these were my worse orals bahs .
duno where have my speeches went to .
something is just missing from my life .
after leaving school had another ' fight ' wid jamiie .
2 vs. 1 ..
however .. jamiie is reali kickk derhs .
then miie andd alina is those jkjk derhs .
den alina's leg got one part po pi ..
mine only bruises .
she still owe miie a kickk andd a slap .
- yi ge ji mo de ren -
wat can ii do about my orals now ? nothing .
``// im always only a turn away from u so that u can see miie easily .
what we could have been, 10:40 PM.
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
- Ghost of You and Me -
What am I supposed to do with all these blues
Haunting me everywhere
No matter what i do
Watching the candle flicker out
In the evening glowI can't let go, when will that night be over
- Chorus -
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
Well one of them is mine
Raising my glass
I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why the stars don't seem to guide me
- (chorus repeated) -
Bridge
The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go
When will this night be over
- (chorus to fade out) -
``// im always only a turn away from u so that u can see miie easily .
What am I supposed to do with all these blues
Haunting me everywhere
No matter what i do
Watching the candle flicker out
In the evening glowI can't let go, when will that night be over
- Chorus -
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
Well one of them is mine
Raising my glass
I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why the stars don't seem to guide me
- (chorus repeated) -
Bridge
The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go
When will this night be over
- (chorus to fade out) -
``// im always only a turn away from u so that u can see miie easily .
what we could have been, 9:45 PM.
Monday, July 24, 2006
went roof garden to walk around just now ..
no one except a worker .
rather peaceful . but was not able to thinkk of anything .
felt quite alone actually .
haiis .
as usual .. guess ii irritated jiayi in school by singing songs out of tune in purpose =))
andd sketching on her book ..
steping on her shoe .. which act as my drum beat .
but sad case . my shoe became quite greyish in de end - guess why ..
thinkk chemistry also no hope lerhs .
mm.. luckily physics postpone .. but duno to when .
almost whole class cheer bahs . but ii was quite retard .
- we are drfting further andd further apart .
but i can do nothing about it ..
can ii ?
teach miie wat to do .
``// im always only a turn away from u so that u can see miie easily .
no one except a worker .
rather peaceful . but was not able to thinkk of anything .
felt quite alone actually .
haiis .
as usual .. guess ii irritated jiayi in school by singing songs out of tune in purpose =))
andd sketching on her book ..
steping on her shoe .. which act as my drum beat .
but sad case . my shoe became quite greyish in de end - guess why ..
thinkk chemistry also no hope lerhs .
mm.. luckily physics postpone .. but duno to when .
almost whole class cheer bahs . but ii was quite retard .
- we are drfting further andd further apart .
but i can do nothing about it ..
can ii ?
teach miie wat to do .
``// im always only a turn away from u so that u can see miie easily .
what we could have been, 5:16 PM.
Sunday, July 23, 2006
black andd white world .
just pass 12am not long .
another day . .
duno wat to do .
tired but down .
havin two tests tmr .
duno how to study fer it .
andd fer some dun understand .
realii dunwan to flunk my tests ..
sure hope ii can pass well .
as ii try to recall why ..
ii dun know wats de reason for hitting my knuckles against de wall that day ..
it did hurts .
it was pain .
but it din hurt miie as how your words did .
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just pass 12am not long .
another day . .
duno wat to do .
tired but down .
havin two tests tmr .
duno how to study fer it .
andd fer some dun understand .
realii dunwan to flunk my tests ..
sure hope ii can pass well .
as ii try to recall why ..
ii dun know wats de reason for hitting my knuckles against de wall that day ..
it did hurts .
it was pain .
but it din hurt miie as how your words did .
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-bleeding .
ii need a hand ..
``// im always only a distance away from u so that u can see miie easily .
what we could have been, 3:08 PM.
Saturday, July 22, 2006
- nii shuo fen shou hao ma ..
wo shuo hao bahs . -
one always have to learn to accept reality .
guess after what ii had heard yesterday realii made miie down .
made miie recall wat happened when im in sec 1 . - de girls . ( two ii once thought / still thinking they are bitches ) but from now on will stop using vulgarities . ii can do it derhs !
andd my relationship wid ta ` . its all fake .
he was never true nor treat it seriously .
maybe its only my assumptions . its useless to say anything now .
ta hao jiu hao .
``// im always only a turn away from u so that u can see miie easily .
wo shuo hao bahs . -
one always have to learn to accept reality .
guess after what ii had heard yesterday realii made miie down .
made miie recall wat happened when im in sec 1 . - de girls . ( two ii once thought / still thinking they are bitches ) but from now on will stop using vulgarities . ii can do it derhs !
andd my relationship wid ta ` . its all fake .
he was never true nor treat it seriously .
maybe its only my assumptions . its useless to say anything now .
ta hao jiu hao .
``// im always only a turn away from u so that u can see miie easily .
what we could have been, 10:20 PM.
Friday, July 21, 2006
amazing race fer de sec 1s was okays bahs .
was in charge of de calligraphy thing .
then some never do jiu pao diiao lerhs .
one class even lied . - ignts .
but sure hope they enjoyed themselves =)
red cross training was okays .
except quite alot of casualties .
andd fer squeena case .. reali greatful to de NCOs fer helping .
THANKS .
not sure wat to say also ..
then reach around 12am liktat parents andd ii went fer a ride .
" dragged " by my mother . hahax .
came backk wid food again .
hongxi : im getting fatter .. ii dun deny .
``// im always only a turn away from u so that u can see miie easily .
was in charge of de calligraphy thing .
then some never do jiu pao diiao lerhs .
one class even lied . - ignts .
but sure hope they enjoyed themselves =)
red cross training was okays .
except quite alot of casualties .
andd fer squeena case .. reali greatful to de NCOs fer helping .
THANKS .
not sure wat to say also ..
then reach around 12am liktat parents andd ii went fer a ride .
" dragged " by my mother . hahax .
came backk wid food again .
hongxi : im getting fatter .. ii dun deny .
``// im always only a turn away from u so that u can see miie easily .
what we could have been, 11:54 PM.
Thursday, July 20, 2006
ye bu zhi dao weii she me ..
kan dao zhe ge date .
will try to recall wat happen 2 years back .
but jiu shii cannot rmb .
every good things have to come to an endd bahs .
just saw u online .
din know what to say too .
things just change so quicky .
from frens - steads - to strangers .
hahas .
- nan dao ni haii meii ting dao .
wo de xiin man man sui liao . -
2o . o7. o6
``// im always only a turn away from u so that u can see miie easily .
kan dao zhe ge date .
will try to recall wat happen 2 years back .
but jiu shii cannot rmb .
every good things have to come to an endd bahs .
just saw u online .
din know what to say too .
things just change so quicky .
from frens - steads - to strangers .
hahas .
- nan dao ni haii meii ting dao .
wo de xiin man man sui liao . -
2o . o7. o6
``// im always only a turn away from u so that u can see miie easily .
what we could have been, 9:39 PM.
Monday, July 17, 2006
damn sadd today ..
but din wana tel them .
because of listening comprehension that we took in class 5B bahs .
andd because of de oral ii took previously ?
haiis. sat rght infront of de CD player .
but de volume ... haiis . nothing to say .
andd ii went to gai de right answers .
den after taking de paper ..
can feel that de tears were going to come up .
but hold backk in de end .
den walk alone to Cp .. thinkk of things .
- speechless -
reach hme lerhs only let a few drops drip down .
thinkk going to flunk every test andd exam dis year ?
- im dumb - .. ii admit .
but ii din wan to either .
``// ii always only a turn away from u so that u can see miie easily .
what we could have been, 8:54 PM.
Thursday, July 13, 2006
haiis. damn down today ..
it started off with an anxious HONGXI ..
den a sadded one ..
thinkk i flunk my oral . ignts abt it lerhs .
haiis. den now still feeling quite stressed up abt tmr ..
ii din even study amaths . andd ii feel unprepared fer both things .
rc .
but guess no one can help miie bahs .
haiis. xian zaii de hongxi .. only have herself to depend ..
she must not breakdown or ' collapsed '
and she dunwan to ..
she wan to prove to him that she can survive without him ..
andd can live alone ... .. ..
wo bi xu xi guan yi ge ren de sheng huo ..
``// im always only a turn away from you so that u can see miie easily .
it started off with an anxious HONGXI ..
den a sadded one ..
thinkk i flunk my oral . ignts abt it lerhs .
haiis. den now still feeling quite stressed up abt tmr ..
ii din even study amaths . andd ii feel unprepared fer both things .
rc .
but guess no one can help miie bahs .
haiis. xian zaii de hongxi .. only have herself to depend ..
she must not breakdown or ' collapsed '
and she dunwan to ..
she wan to prove to him that she can survive without him ..
andd can live alone ... .. ..
wo bi xu xi guan yi ge ren de sheng huo ..
``// im always only a turn away from you so that u can see miie easily .
what we could have been, 9:24 PM.
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
mm.. feeling rather stressed up .
haiis. duno larhs. plainly =')
duno how will ii fare fer tmr oral . - worried cum scared -
hvn been doing well in anything lately .
and friday .. ii gen duno wat to say lerhs .
in com. lab also saw his blog posts ..
and his blogskin again .
mm.. - speechless -
ii just wana be happy ..
because its been 1 1/2 yrs lerhs ?
``// im always a turn away from u so that u can see miie easily ..
what we could have been, 10:09 PM.
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
mm.. fell aslp in mok ' s class.
was damn shocked larhs .
cux is actually reading period .
den was ' leaning ' on de table with my face down ..
READING ..
quite unexpected but think also cux headache and tired..
ii ZzZ - slping in process -..
and thinkk partner just nice caught mok's attention andd he came to our desks .
was actually stil half - aslp derhs .. but suddenly heard him say my name ..
den jump up .. quite xia suai ..
andd thinkk he know.. cux ii have de ' wher am ii ' look .
hope nx tym wun slp in his class again lerhs .
if not kena caught by him sure die derhs .
den nth much happen lerhs..
except ..
my seat is always TAKEN UP BY OTHERS !!
argh .. den always make miie seat-less ..
worse of all .. is guys occupying my table and chair ! >.<
``// im always a turn away from u so that u can see miie easily .
was damn shocked larhs .
cux is actually reading period .
den was ' leaning ' on de table with my face down ..
READING ..
quite unexpected but think also cux headache and tired..
ii ZzZ - slping in process -..
and thinkk partner just nice caught mok's attention andd he came to our desks .
was actually stil half - aslp derhs .. but suddenly heard him say my name ..
den jump up .. quite xia suai ..
andd thinkk he know.. cux ii have de ' wher am ii ' look .
hope nx tym wun slp in his class again lerhs .
if not kena caught by him sure die derhs .
den nth much happen lerhs..
except ..
my seat is always TAKEN UP BY OTHERS !!
argh .. den always make miie seat-less ..
worse of all .. is guys occupying my table and chair ! >.<
``// im always a turn away from u so that u can see miie easily .
what we could have been, 10:23 PM.
Friday, July 07, 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO !
even though haven get u any presents.. but hope ya enjoy ur day even if its w/o her ?
duno larhs. we also rarely talk about these derhs. but sure hope u will be HAPPY =)
what we could have been, 8:58 PM.
Thursday, July 06, 2006
- JI MO de JI JIE -
``// im always a turn away from u so that u can see miie easily.
what we could have been, 9:02 PM.
Sunday, July 02, 2006
wo yi jin hen leii lerhs. but ni yong yuan wun understand .
- xii huan nii.. xiang aii nii .. xiang shuo zhen xiin hua.
im just NAIVE.
``// im always only a turn away from u so that u can see miie easily .
what we could have been, 9:04 PM.
went SYF today. last day last of us being together.
reach HQ around 10 + ..
peixuan , jiayi andd ii dou bao zhe hai pa de xin qing went in the hall .
cux peixuan - belt dirty. jiayi andd ii - 2 lines each on our uniform . and nv iron de 2cm thingy .
were afraid tat ma ' am will penalise us and reali put us in reserve .
cux from wat we think .. she dun like us .
but LUCKILY.. she was not de one to inspect our uniform . hahax. miie andd peixuan was like - WHEW !
after UI .. memeras. then divide us to the buses again .
first time separated from de two of them .
but as a result , get to know another ger - STELLA .
even though she is only a sec 2, she reali shows leadership qualities siia.
tats wat ii think larhs. andd she is also de one to start the conversation first.
LUNCH - bugger and nuggets again
hahax. den found that only some of us will go and make sure that our uniforms were not crumpled. hahax.
had some fun . taught jiayi how to do the claps ?
den after that went for the first rehearsal .
the laps are still melting . GOSH.
my boots were stil dirty from de previous experience.
was quite a dry run through . march pass.
but end upp took quite some time .
BREAK - cheerings !
kinda competing with NCC ( sea ) .. LOL.
but only awhile nia. den while we are doing " united we stand ... "
VS - hans went to do " Mary had a little lamb .. "
quite comical larhs. hahax.
den all of us were shouting to cover up de GB voices and to SHOW THEM.. hahax.
reali enjoyed myself .
FALL IN - going to start lerhs . wahh.. is damn soon lorhs.
their soon is after 5 songs liktat..
den only red cross standing.. others cux thir uniforms arent white sit down andd rest again..
but it wasn tough larhs. we sang along with de songs again.
sway with the music even though we are in fall in position.
but this time not as enthu as the last training .
cux last training we were pratically shouting. clapping. singing the songs together.
tat was de time ii feel as if we have known one another long ago.
and that all of us were united.
a very nice feeling. ( damn. ii miss it )
anw.. den one NPCC instructor jiu say " wah.. red cross power ar. no need sit down one "
ii was like.. =.= we cant sit unless we go and take de ponchos again.
hahax.
PARADE - quite anxious. but managed to be very serious. tried to coordinate lerhs.
duno if we have done well marhs. but at least ii thinkk all of us have put in our efforts lerhs.
de sun was rather hot . but think everyone reali endured and none fall out ? arent sure.
den aft everything. while marching back to out holding areas..
many ppl started to run instead of march. LOL. so chaotic .
desmond sir made some comments. but din reali catch his words.
HQ- we cannot stay to watch the rest of the performance .
everyone were quite high bahs.
there are impromptu performances put up by cadets and SIRs .
VS - damn funny.have a show on david sir andd another ma ' am.
hahax. everyone were laughing damn hard .
dey sure are clever to think of de ' scripts ' within a short while . ( pei fu )
LASTLY- we cheered. some cried. some hugged. some took photos.
it all ended well i guess.
everything good thing have to come to an end.
and SYF ' o6 have to too.
they have become a part of my life and ii reali hope that ii will rmb all dese trainings we once had.
intially ..
all of us were strangers. we were individuals.
we dun reali like going SYF .
after some time ..
we started to encourage one another.
we motivate one another to endure even under hot weather.
we began to show concern for one another.
ending .. we have to put a full - stop .
we have fun and joy.
we once did footdrill together.
we once cheered together.
we once took photos as a whole .
andd most importantly .. thanks friends.. for making this whole process a memorable one for me.
SIRs and ma'ams .. for helpin us to be united.
( vitamin C ).
UNITY IS STRENGTH .. SHOW THEM !!
im just a turn away from u so that u can see me easily // ``
what we could have been, 2:21 PM.
