went to school wid jiayi andd alina .
nothing muchh happened in class barhs .
after school went fer cme den rehearsal ..
ii have meet de parents session - =(
but luckily nellie lim nv say much .. but when say till maths - ii got nothing to say -
after rehearsal quite a big group of us walked in the rain .
something ii wanted to do . as no one will be able to see my expression barhs . hahax .
andd ii was darn wet .. hmm .
thinkk after that also nothing muchh happened =)
but seriously felt rather embarrassed when ii alight de bus ..
cux not sure whether de seat was wet nots .. lols .

morning went to school wid froggie .
in class slack around ..
nothing much happened .. except fer a fight ? ..
hope tat they two okays lerhs .. hmm .
after school went to help out in ' amazing race ' ..
den played basketball after that ..
din exactly want to stop at all .
but they wanted to go home lerhs .. jiu nvm .
hmm . was kinda hoping tat wcpt .

hmm . rot at home in de morning andd afternoon ..
andd ii mean reali rot .
but did watch tv programmes while watching =))
evening / night went out wid family .
din manage to catch de jue dui superstar thing =(
but heard two small boys singing .
quite cute larhs . but their singing .. hmm . have room fer improvement derhs .
but sure was proud of their courage . - thumbs upp -
brought a few things along de way .
mum : pants . bro : jeans . miie : top .
den all : a tv set .
lols . cux parents ' room de spoil lerhs ?
as usual .. brought some food home >.<
im getting fat ! hahax .
quite enjoy myself barhs .
- crapps .

still missing you barhs .
ii tried hard not to thinkk lerhs .
but its hard .
just cant help thinking ..
what exactly happened between us .
friends ? i reali duno .
we seem to be drifting more andd more apart ?
hmm . think ii will learn one day ( wake upp )

- zong yu zhuo le zhe ge jue ding
bie ren zhe me shuo wo bu li
zhi yao ni ye yi yang de ken din .
wo yuan yi tian ya haii jiao dou shui ni qu
wo zhi dao yi qie bu rong yi .

知道你什么话都不说
连仅有的泪都忍住
我才知道
陪着你上路
快乐不是唯一任务
直到我视线开始模糊
而你却满脸不在乎
我才明白学会变法术也回不到最初


一边爱一边走
我已经成为你信徒 相信
情到深处不怕孤独
如果我们不曾看过对方这么苦
如何知道快乐一转身就是痛苦
想不到你绝望的泪水
一刹那让我大彻大悟
如果我们不曾走过感情这条路
如何知道心魔是最沉重的包袱
年少轻狂的好日子
一懂事就结束

知道我们都不愿回顾
连仅有的恨都麻木
我才知道该重新上路
接受命运的新任务
直到我们都变的模糊也毫不在乎赢和输
我才明白感情的法术不是为了征服

( those in red .. hmm .
duno wat to say .

guess ii will just blog as 24th even though its 23rd now ?
hmm . nvm +)
went to school wid alina today .
thinkk first time none of us late .
den nothing much happen barhs .
first two period p.e ..
ran three rounds andd play basketball .
seriously hope is not any of them who threw it down .
andd ii dunwan to believe larhs .
zhe me shuo is also once frens ?
physics was like ..
my row ... zZz .. andd some listening to mp3 etc .
halfway went fer dental checkup ..
was like darn scare andd nervous ..
- have tong nian ying yin .
social studies period we listen to songs .
den blah blahs ..

after school ii badly wanted to play basketball larhs .
but .. . then end upp nv play . cux also need do budget breakdown .
so went kovan and hougang mall wid alina andd jamie .
- broke
after that around 5 + or 6 + barhs .
started to walk home wid jamie .
hougang mall - north vista primary - rivervale plaza - rivervale mall - jamie house - my house .
was like darn long barhs .
andd duno why . hands have been pain these days .
hmm . reach hme ard 8 + barhs .

- cha jian er guo

duno why suddenly want to blog also .
12am lerhs .
but stil want to wait ..

just now have a miss call .
badly wanted to know who is it since its private number ..
andd just have a change of blog song .
played over andd over again .
zhang wei jian - xin tu .
nice song .

when im in tears .
u arent there to cheer miie upp .
to takkaire of miie .
u din care .
ii want to learn not to be afraid of loneliness .
ii want to start afresh ..

- wo shi zong ku bu chu laii .
xin li zhen de hen nan shou .
but ii only have myself to help .
ii just cant seem to confide in anyone .

went school alone again .
hmm . din late =x
first lesson chinese teacher jiu make us sit fer ' test '
alot is anyhow do derhs .
hmm . den got back social studies andd emaths .
both pass by 1 or two marks .
first time but still quite disappointed wid my marks .
furthermore know tat ii wun be able to pass my amaths ..
hmm .
after tat also got back chemistry .. thinkk pass by 1 mark . duno wat to say .
zhen de hen xi wang results can be better .
after school went fer red cross meeting .
quite pek larhs .
but dun wish to talk about it also lerhs .
maybe its partly cux of my mood also barhs .

after that .. play basketball .
( jamie . linda . alina . jiayi andd kian wei )
thinkk played till 0615 ..
got hit several times =(
duno is ii shuay or wat larhs .
then initially play till very lan also ..
cux kinda forgot all de rules andd been long since we last played .
but enjoyed it totally .
went backk home wid jiayi andd alina ..
thinkk we walked damn slowly .
cux took such a long time .
andd ii missed de bus . o.O

then now still chatting wid murali andd alina .
quite interesting . lols =))

1oo sorries .

- sorrie fer not being ur ideal girl .
- sorrie fer not listening to ur everything like u expect miie to .
- sorrie tat ii always disappoint u .
- sorrie fer not loving u enough .
- sorrie tat ii did not do my best to treat u well .
- sorrie tat ii did not spend enough time wid u .
- sorrie fer not being able to be there fer you when u need miie .
- sorrie fer making u regret .
- sorrie fer not meeting ur expectations .
- sorrie fer not telling u de truth at times .
- sorrie fer hurting u .
- sorrie fer causing u to hurt urself .
- sorrie fer causing u to make de wrong choice .
- sorrie fer intruding ur life .
- sorrie fer being so over sensitive .
- sorrie fer what ii am .
- sorrie fer not forgetting u even till now .
- sorrie fer not being able to give up .
- sorrie fer not clearing misunderstandings .
- sorrie fer being such a failure to u .
- sorrie fer accusing u .
- sorrie fer not believing u when u need miie to .
- sorrie that ii always cause u so much trouble .
- sorrie fer always replying late last time .
- sorrie fer making u feel useless oftenly .
- sorrie fer always making u angry .
- sorrie tat ii did not keep my promises at times too .
- sorrie fer being unreasonable .
- sorrie fer not being able to accompanying u most of de times .
- sorrie to make u waste ur time on miie during tat period of time .
- sorrie tat ii always only hav words andd not actions .
- sorrie fer being too harsh at times .
- sorrie fer always saying u hua xin .
- sorrie fer not understanding u well enough .
- sorrie fer miie not being strong when u need miie to .
- sorrie fer being such a burden to u .
- sorrie fer making u feel unimportant .
- sorrie fer not going out wid u oftenly .
- sorrie fer my foolish acts .
- sorrie fer not being able to console u when u needd it .
- sorrie fer my naiveness .
- sorrie fer controlling u if ii did .
- sorrie not daring to speak to u in school .
- sorrie fer not giving you surprises .
- sorrie fer not replying u at times .
- sorrie fer causing u to lie just to make miie happy .
- sorrie fer causing u to break all de promises u made .
- sorrie fer making u wait most of de times alone .
- sorrie tat ii made u lose ur freedom .
- sorrie tat ii made u lose ur time wid ur friends .
- sorrie tat ii caused u to get scolded by de teacher .
- sorrie tat ii caused u to lie to urself .
- sorrie tat ii cant give u de happiness u longed fer .
- sorrie fer not showering u wid care andd concern .
- sorrie fer not taking care of u when u are sick .
- sorrie tat ii cant be de first to be there when u needed one .
- sorrie fer not being ur confidante instead of others taking de job .
- sorrie tat ii duno when to do de right thing .
- sorrie tat ii failed in gaining ur trust in miie .
- sorrie that ii duno when ii should say de right thing .
- sorrie fer being so foolish.
- sorrie fer always being silly .
- sorrie fer always not understanding what u are going through .
- sorrie fer always making u feel worse instead .
- sorrie fer making u sick .
- sorrie fer being a nusiance to you .
- sorrie tat ii caused u to tell lies all along .
- sorrie tat ii cannot do alot of things fer you .
- sorrie tat im such a slut .
- sorrie tat ii cant express myself well .
- sorrie fer not being able to tell u how important you are to miie .
- sorrie fer not being able to show u how much u weigh in my heart .
- sorrie fer always making u misunderstand miie .
- sorrie fer all de unnecessary quarrels .
- sorrie tat ii made u get scolded by parents tat time .
- sorrie tat ii made u worried .
- sorrie tat ii made u wait fer nothing once .
- sorrie fer not taking neoprints wid u when u asked miie to .
- sorrie fer not being able to compromise .
- sorrie fer being so timid .
- sorrie fer not cherishing you .
- sorrie fer not being able to change fer you .
- sorrie fer not loving you enough .
- sorrie fer not telling u how ii feel .
- sorrie fer being impulsive at times .
- sorrie fer being indecisive .
- sorrie fer being gullible .
- sorrie not suiting you .
- sorrie fer not knowing how to cheer u up .
- sorrie fer not knowing how to differentiate between right andd wrong .
- sorrie fer everthing .
- sorrie fer all de conflicts .
- sorrie fer not trying hard enough to let go .
- sorrie tat ii made us become strangers now .
- sorrie tat its so hard to forget the memories u once gave to miie .
- sorrie tat ii took a riskk andd ii lost .
- sorrie tat ii longed to see u .
- sorrie tat im still missing you .
- sorrie fer everything .
- sorrie fer loving you .

hmm . opened a new blog ..
but forgot is when start create derhs ..
but still thinkk will try post most posts here .
duno larhs .nv tell anyone de address except elder brother barhs .
hmm .+)
but still hope u all wun askk barhs .
just want to keep it kinda personal ?

hope can pass common tests .

having tests these days .
almost all nv study or study halfway derhs .
damn stressed larhs .
but still dun hv de test atmosphere .
whole class still joking around in school .
zai zhe yang xia qu ..
what will my results become ?
hmm . den always sit at de back ..
have to strain my eyesight =(( .. hen xin ku ..
den sometimes even when want listen will also endd upp doing other things instead .

evening went HQ collect shirts .
quite dumb larhs .
tmr physics test ..
so many chapters hvn study yet but still reach hme ard 10 +
so din reali study in de end ..
hmm . sure hope can pass all my test ..
zhen de hen xi wang .
de ' dinner ' was okays barhs .
den went ps ..
din see him again ..
mei yuan fen de wo men ..

another month have passed .
what am ii waiting fer ..
wo ye bu zhi dao ..
mei yuan mei fen barhs .
can we be friends like before ?

ii regretted not treating u well enough .
ii regretted not loving u enough .
ii regretted not telling you how ii feel .
ii regretted not being your ideal girl .
ii regretted not doing what ii should do .
ii regretted not having enough time with u ..

ii regretted .
ii regretted ..
but wats de use of regretting ?
ii cant turn backk de time .

- yong qi .

walked back home alone from school today .
was tiring cux damn scorching hot .
hmm .. then actually wanted to give upp halfway derhs ..
but dou walked dao zhe me yuan lerhs ..
jiu continue ..

den after tat also nv go out wid them ..
went punggol beach alone ..
until 3+ barhs ..
saw a couple ..
hmm .. hahax .
was damn peaceful over there ..
but din bring camera phone again ..
den cannot take photos =(
cux actually kinda make up my mind not to go there again lerhs ..
hmm .. was hoping that u will be there fer both ..
but u arent . bu yao jin =) . ni kaii xin jiu hao ..

after that receive call from linda .
jiu rush down to compasspoint at 10 + ..
bro drove miie there ..
things cropped up ..
andd endd upp reaching home ard 12 + ..
but still din wan to slp ..
duno why .. hmm .
you are missed .

wo zhen de bu zhi dao gaii shuo xie she me .
xin li jiu shii you yi ge jie bu kaii de jie .
reali dun feel like going tmr .
but depends barhs .
if not ii jiu go beach alone .
zhen de hao lei hao lei .

wo zhe yi zhen tian yi jin zhuang zhe zi ji hen xiang hen kaii kin lerhs .
dan xin li haii shi jue de hen nan shou .

gan cai shuo dui ta shuo de mei ju hua dou ran wo jue de zi ji yi mei you tong de gan jue lerhs .

ii ii dun wan to clear misunderstandings anymore .
its seems pointless .
andd sometimes . even when u try to explain ..
de other party will either dun understand or drift away from u .
like now . ta he wo .
wo he ta .

slot this under o6/o8 . - dumb .

MISUNDERSTANDINGS .
misunderstandings .
misunderstandings .
misunderstandings .
misunderstandings .

we are drifting . thats de only thing ii know tat is happening now .

all along ii thought ii had given u up .
but guess ii din after all .
bu zhi dao wo shii meii yong haii shii tai ben ..
dou zhe mo jiu lerhs .
wei she me wo haii shii fang bu xia .
xin li jue de hao tong hao tong .
dan shi zong ku bu chu laii .
- ii am still thinking of you -

wo zi xiang zaii yi pang yuan yuan de kan zhe nii .
zaii yi pang ban zhu nii .
without intruding ur life .
but its so hard .
ii dun get de chance .
- ii miss you -

this seems so much like de point when we separate .
felt so emotionless .
cant express myself .
wo zhen de bu zhi dao gai zhe me ban .
- im sorry -

``// im always a turn away from u so that u can see miie easily .

hmm. actually want to update on what happened de past few days derhs .
but ii kinda forgot wat took place lerhs >.<

today went red cross room to packk first aid kits again .
- worn out -

then so odd larhs .
3 of us - linda . jiayi andd my right hand pain .
andd thinkk at de same position also .
hmm .
stayed till 6 + reaching 7 liktat barhs .
on de way home .
nothing much happened .
but jamiie ki siao .
keep rapping .
about parents . sisters . brothers . etc . ( ARGH ! ) hahax .
but thinkk partly my fault .. cux ii was de one who started it . =(
tmr have training again .
nothing to say barhs .
just hope tat it goes well .

reach hme also duno why .
quarrelled awhile .
haiis . everything changes .
ii still cant seem to confide in anyone .

``// im always only a turn away from u so that u can see miie easily .

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