Tuesday, March 31, 2009
HAPPY birthday jiarong (;
just a pen down of thoughts.
had a veryy bad dream yest
&woke up w. the desire to cry, i dontknow why.
nightmares are still bugging me :/
have been feeling really empty deep down.
&tears just cant flow when i need them to, to feel alive
there's jsut the feeling of emptiness, something lacking which i cant express nor describe.
i feel like a dead zombie.
& please, let me start staying awake in school, rid me of the sleepyness.
help.
just a pen down of thoughts.
had a veryy bad dream yest
&woke up w. the desire to cry, i dontknow why.
nightmares are still bugging me :/
have been feeling really empty deep down.
&tears just cant flow when i need them to, to feel alive
there's jsut the feeling of emptiness, something lacking which i cant express nor describe.
i feel like a dead zombie.
& please, let me start staying awake in school, rid me of the sleepyness.
help.
what we could have been, 11:55 PM.
Monday, March 30, 2009
monday blues, seriously.
headache since the first or second period & all the way till i reached home.
&&& finally,
basketball a lil before pe w. qin &steph during self-study period (self-study for our class, i will say, a free period.)
pe-ed but i stopped aft 2 sets of interval training, (4rounds)
seriously weak i guess,
felt a lil giddy, w. the black patches i saw.
then its home sweet home to bed.
headache since the first or second period & all the way till i reached home.
&&& finally,
basketball a lil before pe w. qin &steph during self-study period (self-study for our class, i will say, a free period.)
pe-ed but i stopped aft 2 sets of interval training, (4rounds)
seriously weak i guess,
felt a lil giddy, w. the black patches i saw.
then its home sweet home to bed.
what we could have been, 11:33 PM.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
this week:
MONDAY - econs MBT
TUESDAY - chem MBT
WEDNESDAY - maths MBT
THURSDAY - hist MBT
screwed, including gp paper.
just hoping for a miracle i guess, i want no parentmeeting sessions.
&&i really want to start mugging sooon. please let me have the discipline.
FRIDAY - post-mortem,
&CIP. yeah, finally i went but was the only girl volunteer that day, the others cldnt make it.
slacked at macs after that & played indian poker w. the guys till near 11 & its home sweet home. oh, and i got smeared w. chilli twice for the forfeit :/ & i made a new friend called william from SR!
SATURDAY - 'toGetHer'... &HAPPY birthday to dad!
SUNDAY - 'toGetHer'....
pictures (starting from latest) over the times i dint update &some from last year :
(dinner; alina's house; mar 16)
(birthday; roofgarden; mar 11)
(birthday aftermath; MJ; mar 11)
(CIP; marine parade; feb o1)
(random; outside school; lastyear) 
jsut smile &wave. thanks.
MONDAY - econs MBT
TUESDAY - chem MBT
WEDNESDAY - maths MBT
THURSDAY - hist MBT
screwed, including gp paper.
just hoping for a miracle i guess, i want no parentmeeting sessions.
&&i really want to start mugging sooon. please let me have the discipline.
FRIDAY - post-mortem,
&CIP. yeah, finally i went but was the only girl volunteer that day, the others cldnt make it.
slacked at macs after that & played indian poker w. the guys till near 11 & its home sweet home. oh, and i got smeared w. chilli twice for the forfeit :/ & i made a new friend called william from SR!
SATURDAY - 'toGetHer'... &HAPPY birthday to dad!
SUNDAY - 'toGetHer'....
pictures (starting from latest) over the times i dint update &some from last year :
(dinner; alina's house; mar 16)
(birthday; roofgarden; mar 11)
(birthday aftermath; MJ; mar 11)
(CIP; marine parade; feb o1)
(random; outside school; lastyear) 
jsut smile &wave. thanks.
what we could have been, 2:13 PM.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
anww, the personality test results i took on wed (you decide if its true) :
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
what we could have been, 11:41 PM.
Saturday, March 07, 2009
reflection.
realised the way i am getting pass life this year is worse than before.
studies - cant cope.
cant uds nor am able to catch up.
my sleeping and tv problem;
what can i say. have been sleeping alot& almost always cant focus in lectures & tutorials.
the release of alevel results,
yeah, it did made me feel motivated.
but the motivation just dint last.
once i am home, just slept all the way.
i am feeling drained.
with the pile of overdue work undone,
with myself not understanding,
with myself not studyin hard nor doing work.
yes, i guess i am panicking since MBT is nearing & i am not at all prepared.
but i just dontreally know where to start nor what to do w. myself.
deep down, i realise. i still dislike studying.
i still yearn for the freedom from exams, tests, stress just like before.
reaching 18 alr.
but no, i am still not sensible nor am able to spare a thought for my family
i still ponder alot on the past.
whatever friendship we shared & whatever that took place.
how everything had changed so quickly.
thinking abt nonsensical stuff i have no control over.
please, jsut let me start studyin real hard soon & have a better understanding of everything.
i just want to get through school life.
&yeah, i am really okay.
just pen-ing down my thoughts (;
realised the way i am getting pass life this year is worse than before.
studies - cant cope.
cant uds nor am able to catch up.
my sleeping and tv problem;
what can i say. have been sleeping alot& almost always cant focus in lectures & tutorials.
the release of alevel results,
yeah, it did made me feel motivated.
but the motivation just dint last.
once i am home, just slept all the way.
i am feeling drained.
with the pile of overdue work undone,
with myself not understanding,
with myself not studyin hard nor doing work.
yes, i guess i am panicking since MBT is nearing & i am not at all prepared.
but i just dontreally know where to start nor what to do w. myself.
deep down, i realise. i still dislike studying.
i still yearn for the freedom from exams, tests, stress just like before.
reaching 18 alr.
but no, i am still not sensible nor am able to spare a thought for my family
i still ponder alot on the past.
whatever friendship we shared & whatever that took place.
how everything had changed so quickly.
thinking abt nonsensical stuff i have no control over.
please, jsut let me start studyin real hard soon & have a better understanding of everything.
i just want to get through school life.
&yeah, i am really okay.
just pen-ing down my thoughts (;
what we could have been, 8:53 PM.
Thursday, March 05, 2009
yeahh, i know; i know i am suppose to rush history now.
but.......... seriously not sure how to do nor am able to focus.
but.......... seriously not sure how to do nor am able to focus.
&& i find the pictures above really nice :D
anww,,
HAPPY birthday jierong! (:
what we could have been, 12:15 AM.
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
HAPPY belated birthday pohyi! (:
you areeeee 18years & 2days old!
you areeeee 18years & 2days old!
what we could have been, 9:07 PM.
nothing muchh.
just the sudden urge to listen to tonghua.
-- the painted smile (:
just the sudden urge to listen to tonghua.
-- the painted smile (:
what we could have been, 9:06 PM.
Sunday, March 01, 2009
my 4+1+ many other dreams?
what we could have been, 11:23 PM.
