Tuesday, October 23, 2012
yet sometimes i feel like i've lost even myself.
recently i've been rly hot-tempered. like srly low patience threshold.
i'm just literally flaring up w people, especially people i love.
whats wrong?
i guess i rly cant handle stress and i just literally suck at studies and i'm a sucker for research even more.
projects, deadlines are weighing me down mentally.
i know i need t change, but.its.just.so.hard.
what we could have been, 10:55 PM.
Monday, October 22, 2012
feeling so shitty. honestly i just suck at research or projects or studies in general. and being a heavy heavy procrastinator is totally not helping :(
buck up hx buck up
buck up hx buck up
what we could have been, 6:58 PM.
Monday, October 01, 2012
mentally.
what we could have been, 4:27 PM.
Wednesday, February 08, 2012
just heard from steph both clara and her will be going canada and fel, taiwan.
wonder how my next sem will be like, w/o them.
tgt w the guys, they'r like my only hang-out friends in ntu thats how 'big' my social circle is.
and i'm almost always clueless abt what t do, what modules t clear etc. always cant be bothered.
how am i going t survive w/o them :/
big sighhh. sure going t miss them
what we could have been, 10:14 AM.
Friday, January 20, 2012
appealllllllllllllllllllllllllll, why you no grant me success?!
now no core how?! :(
on a side note, i jsut retrieved my slipper today! :D
now no core how?! :(
on a side note, i jsut retrieved my slipper today! :D
what we could have been, 9:26 AM.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
pretty upset for awhile today it got me crying.
was boarding the train at buona vista station. think i even set one foot on the train alr.
then the unexpected happened.
someone kicked my slipper down t the railway track.
the f word totally came out i mean, nvr have i expected sth like that could happen t me.
went out of the train w just one slipper on feeling totally lost just wanted t find the red peeps.
went back up the escalator t the control station but didnt receive much assurance.
took down my contacts, told me she will pass t the night shift staff. but also added sth like if they cant retrieve it i can only just get a new pair.
felt pretty helpless cause the info i provided wasnt exactly useful too. i wasnt sure at that time if i dropped it on the train or into the railway track (i know its the latter aft i saw it between the gaps when i boarded the next train :()
theres stares inevitably but heck, seriously just hope they'll call me tmr morningggg. let me retrieve it please please please.
on a side note and just for memory purpose since it seldom happens, cooked myself a packet of noodles for supper
was boarding the train at buona vista station. think i even set one foot on the train alr.
then the unexpected happened.
someone kicked my slipper down t the railway track.
the f word totally came out i mean, nvr have i expected sth like that could happen t me.
went out of the train w just one slipper on feeling totally lost just wanted t find the red peeps.
went back up the escalator t the control station but didnt receive much assurance.
took down my contacts, told me she will pass t the night shift staff. but also added sth like if they cant retrieve it i can only just get a new pair.
felt pretty helpless cause the info i provided wasnt exactly useful too. i wasnt sure at that time if i dropped it on the train or into the railway track (i know its the latter aft i saw it between the gaps when i boarded the next train :()
theres stares inevitably but heck, seriously just hope they'll call me tmr morningggg. let me retrieve it please please please.
on a side note and just for memory purpose since it seldom happens, cooked myself a packet of noodles for supper
what we could have been, 11:25 PM.
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
just a pretty short post t rant about my skin cause its itching yet again :(
really really hate the condition of my skin since the rashes.
ever since, i am afraid, really, everytime my skin gets itchy and comes out the bumps and red patches.
i am really really afraid most of the time history will repeat itself which had been a super super tough period for me.
recalling, i rmbr the times i broke down just because i felt really helpless, just because going t doctors doesnt work and the rashes doesnt go away after weeks, and eventually a month went by.
it was terrible. really, w a swollen face all of a sudden for no reason, super duper dry itchy skin which drops 'flakes' wherever i go, and the itchness.. was just totally unbearable.
please please, jsut dont ever let me experience it again. please
really really hate the condition of my skin since the rashes.
ever since, i am afraid, really, everytime my skin gets itchy and comes out the bumps and red patches.
i am really really afraid most of the time history will repeat itself which had been a super super tough period for me.
recalling, i rmbr the times i broke down just because i felt really helpless, just because going t doctors doesnt work and the rashes doesnt go away after weeks, and eventually a month went by.
it was terrible. really, w a swollen face all of a sudden for no reason, super duper dry itchy skin which drops 'flakes' wherever i go, and the itchness.. was just totally unbearable.
please please, jsut dont ever let me experience it again. please
what we could have been, 12:01 AM.
Monday, December 12, 2011
short and sweet post (:
another. day. of. waste. today.
another. day. of. waste. today.
what we could have been, 12:09 AM.
Saturday, December 10, 2011
yi ge shagged day.
went pasir ris east cc alone t watch silat matches.
and again, was lost while trying t find my way there. totally zZ
even though i didnt talk much t the rest or even barely spoke since they were all communicating in their mother tongue and we arent that close, i did pretty much enjoyed my time there.
from watching the matches - especially hariz who is soooooooooooooooooooo duper cute, the more exciting adult (seemingly around my age?) matches and also freestyle matches which is really really fierceee.
left early and headed back t home (:
on a side note, got reminded on how guys are especially in their secondary school days cause of aziz and indra w their teasing and all.
also realise i am pretty anti-social afterall.
went pasir ris east cc alone t watch silat matches.
and again, was lost while trying t find my way there. totally zZ
even though i didnt talk much t the rest or even barely spoke since they were all communicating in their mother tongue and we arent that close, i did pretty much enjoyed my time there.
from watching the matches - especially hariz who is soooooooooooooooooooo duper cute, the more exciting adult (seemingly around my age?) matches and also freestyle matches which is really really fierceee.
left early and headed back t home (:
on a side note, got reminded on how guys are especially in their secondary school days cause of aziz and indra w their teasing and all.
also realise i am pretty anti-social afterall.
what we could have been, 10:54 PM.
Friday, December 09, 2011
stayed home friday.
hence aka my rotting day.
stone-sleep-snack-tv-sleep-snack-tv- - - -.
was thinking thru a lil yest night while browsing through a few photos. a friend's photos.
i realise, everyone really live life a different manner.
there are ppl, who are trying t quit smoking, but there are also some, who are smoking, i guess without the mentality t quit?
sometimes it really hurts a lil i guess, t see a friend changed, picking up the bad habits that werent there when you guys once hang out together.
even though we arent close for quite some time alr or have never ever been really close, there's still a tinge of helplessness felt.
hence aka my rotting day.
stone-sleep-snack-tv-sleep-snack-tv- - - -.
was thinking thru a lil yest night while browsing through a few photos. a friend's photos.
i realise, everyone really live life a different manner.
there are ppl, who are trying t quit smoking, but there are also some, who are smoking, i guess without the mentality t quit?
sometimes it really hurts a lil i guess, t see a friend changed, picking up the bad habits that werent there when you guys once hang out together.
even though we arent close for quite some time alr or have never ever been really close, there's still a tinge of helplessness felt.
what we could have been, 11:30 PM.
Thursday, December 08, 2011
movie not-yet-marathon at np today.
haha travelled allllllllllllllll the way t clementi just t watch two movies w kee.
- one of my GREAT ideas cause of bored moments i guess.
caught tuesdays w morrie and the time traveller's wife.
then dinner together w isk back at the google place - tpy
kinda rush
then headed t my longgg mia silat (:
weak
haha travelled allllllllllllllll the way t clementi just t watch two movies w kee.
- one of my GREAT ideas cause of bored moments i guess.
caught tuesdays w morrie and the time traveller's wife.
then dinner together w isk back at the google place - tpy
kinda rush
then headed t my longgg mia silat (:
weak
what we could have been, 11:20 PM.
Friday, November 25, 2011
felt really depressed late last night.
145am, made the decision t mc 210.
the feeling really suck big time cause it was sooo bloody last minute.
i've completed 35% of the module alr - w a quiz that i copied and a group research paper.
i've tried t study for it.
and t make it worse, it was so easy for me t straight away thought of the alternative t mc when i saw the practice qns (it'd stunned me totally and demoralised me ttm)
conclusion: time wasted, 4aus gone, ifeelprettymuchlikeaquitter.
but yes, no use crying over spilt milk. really hope its the first and last time i need t mc a paper.
145am, made the decision t mc 210.
the feeling really suck big time cause it was sooo bloody last minute.
i've completed 35% of the module alr - w a quiz that i copied and a group research paper.
i've tried t study for it.
and t make it worse, it was so easy for me t straight away thought of the alternative t mc when i saw the practice qns (it'd stunned me totally and demoralised me ttm)
conclusion: time wasted, 4aus gone, ifeelprettymuchlikeaquitter.
but yes, no use crying over spilt milk. really hope its the first and last time i need t mc a paper.
what we could have been, 6:50 PM.
Saturday, October 01, 2011
whats.wrong.
wheres all the endless conversations we once had?
wheres all the endless conversations we once had?
what we could have been, 6:45 PM.
Thursday, June 09, 2011
just a lil more than depressed and helpless.
neighbour, , now super poor results.
summing my life in two words at this very moment- messed up.
neighbour, , now super poor results.
summing my life in two words at this very moment- messed up.
what we could have been, 1:53 AM.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
a cut on my fat left thigh at movie mob.
add two small cuts on my fat left thigh from homeeeee.
i really should start packgg.
add two small cuts on my fat left thigh from homeeeee.
i really should start packgg.
what we could have been, 6:29 PM.
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Sunday, December 05, 2010
i really need t start mugggging.
let me be like him please.
starrrrrrrrrrt!
what we could have been, 11:48 PM.
Thursday, December 02, 2010
sometimes, the past just haunts.
what we could have been, 9:53 PM.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
FML
what we could have been, 10:43 PM.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
the night i squat shit-stirrer's hall (:
what we could have been, 10:56 PM.
